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She Made Me

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Hey everyone,

It’s Mac. So, I guess I’m supposed to update you all on my life since the big move. We left London last month, and honestly? It feels like I left a piece of myself behind.

First off, let’s talk about the tour. It’s a lot. The stops, the not stopping, the strangers, the babies! Crying, laughing, talking, singing ALL day long, it’s busy but it feels empty without Nolie here. We used to share everything—our secrets, our snacks, and even our dreams of exploring the world together, without Mama OR Dad and Nickie. Now, it’s just me..and Ma, some knucklehead called Mo, Jassy and two more new sisters, they’re kinda fucking cute but damn they’re noisy. And there’s Whiskers, my cat, seems to be handling the move better than I am. He claims the sunny spot everywhere we stop and just watches the world go by, like he’s trying to figure it out too.

Ma is happy though, and that’s different, I am pumped for this version of her. Her new husband is okay, I guess? He keeps trying to not look like he hates me, which is fine, but it feels weird. He’s not my dad, and I’m not sure how I feel about him, but it’s not like I remember my Ma and Dad together even. It’s just..something.

I miss the bustling streets of London—the sounds, the people, the chaos. Chaos I can tune out. I can hear stuff, chaos but it doesn’t feel like London did.

Sometimes I find myself staring out the window, hoping to see the familiar bright lights of the city. If Nolie was here I know she’d know how to make me laugh about all this. I even kinda miss school…

Anyway, I guess I’m just trying to figure things out one day at a time. Maybe things will get better, and I’ll learn to love this spot I’m in too. For now, it’s just me and Whiskers, waiting for Ma to call us for icees. It’s great to be so close to her everyday even if I don’t understand why she had to have me come with her everywhere now.

Later,

Mac